if you ask me what really brings me back...

it's the constant reminder that other people need Him.

really wish i could just delete some memories and emotions in my life right now...

when i am focused on myself the only thing i think about is leaving... sometimes i think it would be easier & it also wouldn't matter...

why didn't anyone say it would be hard?

the circumstances may be different but that doesn't make it easier...

sometimes we need to be told, loud and clear, what to do next...

but other times the best thing for us to do is to trust and wait patiently...

how hard is it not knowing the end?

& yet, this too shall pass...

oh great God, be small enough to hear me now...

You alone know my pains, my tears, my cries, my desires, my heart...

but that doesn't mean that You will answer or reveal Yourself in the ways i expect You to...

but i am still expectant...

and if all i get is a little bit more of You, oh God, i will take it...

be strong... in the Lord...

when you give your heart away to someone, make sure that that person won't ever give it back...

decisions, decisions...

they don't get easier the older i get...

sometimes i wish God laid everything out for us in black & white, as easy as yes to this & no to that. but if He did, then we wouldn't have to trust Him the way we do when everything is unclear & uncertain...

but i would never want to give up that privilege of being able to completely trust my Savior & my Father...

& ultimately, life will always be uncertain, so i should always just be trusting Him...

don't know where i'm going with this...

don't know where i'm going in life...

but He does...